new beginning

Melaka

2011-01-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

It has been 4 days since my last day over at Jones the Grocer. Its been really nice just lazing around the house doing almost nothing. I have to tell you nothing is better than eating a meal and falling asleep 10 minutes after that. Its heaven i tell you.
So my lazing days are over, im getting bored. What do i do? Wait for invitation from friends. Now you see, unlike me, these people have jobs. So, its not very easy for them to find time to entertain me.
So in the middle of nowhere, my ex colleague msg-ed me, asking me to go melacca, i think she was just kidding. But i took it seriously. She is there currently to "renew" her visit pass here in sg. All alone, i offered her for me to come over. Know why im so nice? Coz its jay. Jay is nice like that.
Haha, nolah, jay is just bored.
So, here i am. In the bus. With no sleep. Waiting to enter jb.
Seriously, i have no bus ticket, have no idea of the bus schedule. Im just puting this on god's hand.

2010-12-26T03:46:00.000+08:00

At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone,
that the only next possible step to do is to stop.
Leave them alone.
Walk away.
It’s not like you’re giving up,
and it’s not like you shouldn’t try.
It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation.
What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be

another O.O

2010-12-07T22:40:00.000+08:00

Sasha came over and that means... her sister is here too.. WOOOH! Halo PETRA!

O.O

2010-12-06T21:10:00.001+08:00

It was a typical Monday evening with the usual 3 to 4 tables being occupied. Air con was bursting its cold wind at 20 degrees. What do I have to complain? Its nice, comfortable and peaceful. Peace was disturbed every 30 minutes or so with some staff asking me to void off items. It just got me a little frustrated. A quite evening like this, should not be complimented with any form of mistakes from the staff.

Looking at the time now, 8.51pm. The night is still young, so they say. Not many things need to be done. Butter has been cut, jams are all prepared and ready for tomorrow's morning rush. There really isn't much to be done around here. Almost a year now with Jones, everything has started to become static. Monotonous. Boring.
My heart is still beating fast. Really fast. So I thought it was over. I deleted her off my facebook, contacts list and tried deleting her off my mind too.

As usual, I was walking around checking on the operations. Went out to the al-fresco to send over some drinks to the customers. I strolled back inside the restaurant only to have a shock. There, in front of me, stood a nice looking girl, hair straight down to the shoulders. A decent height to weight ratio but a face way too familiar. Should I say hi? Or open up a small conversation? Or should I just be direct I say, Ive missed her so much? I had to look twice just to make sure that my half sleeping mind is not playing any form of tricks on me. Well assured, it was her. Sandra.

I carried on doing my duties pretending that all's fine. I tried to blank of my mind for a few seconds. Nothing worked. My heart kept beating faster. The more I tried, the worst it got. I calmed myself down with a few sips of ice water that had stood solo in front of me. Half the time, I felt sick, I wanted to rush down the toilet and let go of all that was in me.

It took her about 10 minutes to leave the restaurant. What was her intention? Does she know that I was on shift? Or was she here with a bit of a luck that I wasn't working today? Nevertheless, I was happy, angry and frustrated all at the same time.

Goodbyes are never easy, I ended it really harsh. I may hurt now. But its for the better future.

2010-11-23T14:13:00.001+08:00

once a bitch always a bitch right? so why bother?

2010-11-19T20:25:00.001+08:00

In a work place, there is always a Mole. And the worst, is when the bloody Mole dont say the right thing, but instead feed in bullshit info... Why make things worst?

Sent from my HTC

2010-11-18T14:03:00.001+08:00

Yes I know, Im a dude with a blog.

Sent from my HTC

2010-11-18T00:32:00.002+08:00

for today will be a new beginning for me. I started my day well, ended it well at the same time. Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha to all Muslims!

OK! I need to get a new keyboard soon. My right shift button does not work!

2010-11-13T23:18:00.002+08:00

Tired today? Yes I was! Caught in the rain again. I just realized, I always get caught in the rain on every Saturday! 5 times in a row now. ok never mind.

After days and days of asking my mum if she will cook Crabs for us, she finally did. Got home from training and she asked if I was going out again. After me saying no, she said she will be cooking Crab for dinner. Oooh, delighted I was! Being the busybody me, I went to the kitchen to see whats smoking. Stood there were crabs and fried chicken drumsticks. Then I realised, there was once I told her, "ma, why not bring Newton Circus back home?". But sadly my parents didn't get any other seafood from Sheng Siong. Then I went to my dad and said "lets go get more stuff". And get more stuff we did. We rode down to Sheng Siong and brought back a bunch of other seafood species.

List:
Lala
More crabs
Sotong
Tiger Prawns
Sting Ray
Kang Kong
Shitake Mushrooms
Sea Snails (Siput Sedut)

Helped mum with the cooking. Felt really good in the kitchen with her. She thought me a few stuff. Im just being a filial son. Not! hahaha. The best of it was me cutting the tail of the snail's shell and the snails were doing the "mas selamat" trying to escape.

Had a huge dinner with the whole family. This is just one of the few times we get to sit down together as a whole family enjoying good food.

ArGH!

2010-11-12T20:38:00.002+08:00

Ive been dreading myself lately in everything. Feeling tired all the time. The only thing that keeps me going now is that drop of adrenaline left in me, probably from the many cups of latte that I drown myself with everyday at work.

Its been about 2 weeks now since I last saw her. Ok, I did see her last week, but that was just a "HELLO! ok bye" moment -.- Seriously, how can I let an 18 year old school girl take over my life and emotions? I keep on asking myself again and again. I may sit down with another friend talking about her and Ill get good advice on how to over come it, but its all not working. Its easy to say, take it slow or forget about her or she is not worth it or she has too much ego to admit she likes/loves you or she doesn't know what she wants or she is just playing games on you or whatever that 1001 reasons are, but I still cant get over it.

A few days ago I decided to tell her, OK, this is it, Im letting you go because of yada yada yada. But 5 minutes later, I wrote a letter to her saying, I cant forget her. Honestly, what is so great about this being I'm talking about? I don't know. Love is blind. Im willing to cross that river of fire or fly over to Jupiter just to make her happy, but do I get in return? ..... but why do I keep on going? So that I can see her smile.

I want to know whats her game, or maybe she doesn't have one but still, I want to know whats in her head. But its so hard. So let me explain about me. Im the kind of guy that will tell you right in the face if Im not happy. Let it be harsh, but then I let it go there and then. But not for her. She will drag that 1 mistake I did to her and not tell me about it. She expects me to know. Goodness sake, I'm a guy. Guys do not have that conscience. We guys, can fart one second and go, HUH? what did I do? so for her to tell me "I'm angry at you.(FULL-STOP)". An the worst is when she end it with "I dunno, I have no mood to talk about this, BYE" I can break my head open with that. She gives me that tinge of a hint and leaves it there expecting me to know why. How do you solve an issue in this manner?

cant let you go

2010-11-11T02:26:00.003+08:00

It was easy for me to say Im letting you go,
but deep inside,
who am I lying to?
Im not going to,
not at this time.

no one has affected me this much before, but you.
Ive not cared for someone so much before, only you.
I hope you know, we don't think alike.
I don't know whats on your mind.
only if I could crack your skull,
pull out your brains,
and see whats inside.
and only if you could do the same,
to see how much you mean to me.
you know how I am with words,
Im clumsy at times.
Every mistake that I do to you,
I sincerely apologize.
Every harsh words that came to you,
Ill take it back, and smack it at my own face.

every time I see you smile,
I will feel happy inside.
and when I see you frown,
I always feel that it was my fault.
how I wish I could make you happy all the time,
but there is so much I can do.
I never meant to make you sad,
never meant to make you mad.
If I did, I'm sorry once again.

letting you go is not as easy as 1,2,3
cause every time I think of it,
I think how much you mean to me.
I keep on hurting again and again,
was it my own mistake?

Jones

2010-11-08T23:18:00.002+08:00

Since the long disappearance act I pulled off with my blog, many things has happened. From good to bad. From bad to worse. And it gets better now and then.

It has been a almost a year now since Ive been with Jones the Grocer; an Australian grocery and restaurant. Working there has its ups and downs but of course, you never avoid problems. Starting off as a barista, I took a pay cut from my previous work place. In my mind at that time, it wast all about money. I wanted to learn new things, and feel whats it like in another environment.

I started my stint in FnB since I was 14. I still remember my first job, Delifrance. I love the service industry. Interactivity and productivity that is involved in it. I never see myself working in a place that is within 4 walls. I have to be on the move and always have my heart pumping. My lazy hours and time will definitely come in the day, but when it stretches too far, Ill get bored easily. That explains why, even after graduating from school, I decided not to carry on my career as a designer. Long story short, it just wasn't my passion.

Jones gave me a better look into the service industry in a better perspective. Reason number one being, it was a bigger picture. A bigger restaurant, bigger crowd which means, bigger problems to handle. It keeps my blood pumping and I loved the adrenaline rush. Working in the bar for my first 3 months, kept my going. But that was when politics did not exist yet. Honestly, its really something you cant avoid. Its always there in where ever workplace you go. So after having enough bullshit, I decided to take up the offer from my GM at the service side. There wasn't really much thinking needed. As I know, I can get a better prospect and growth in the service line. And of course, he gave me a better offer.

My three months probation as an Asst Operations Supervisor wasn't easy. Not many staff fancied the fact that I became supervisor out of nowhere. I had so many critics about me and staff pin pointing my mistakes. I took all that in and tried to improve. I just held on and told myself to not give up and also to prove all this people wrong. Then came my promotion. That was my relief period. But still not many liked that fact. But what can I say? I cant please everyone.

Now, it has been 10 months with Jones. There still is so much politics happening that it becomes ridiculous. My passion has dropped from 10 to 5. I'm the kind of person that tries to give as much effort as possible in what I do. I was a very streak Supervisor at one time. I didn't give any form of leniency. But staff hated me for that. So I toned down, try not to be to serious at times and not do so much. I made the mistake of not earning enough respect from my staff but instead jump right in. Now slowly, but surely, things are getting better on my side.

2010-11-08T04:16:00.001+08:00

IM BACK! BIATCH!!!!!

its been awhile

2010-11-08T04:10:00.002+08:00

how long has it been since my last post? gosh. Maybe I should start doing all this again. but for now, ill just settle with this new template. I kinda like it. boring aint I?

hhmmph!

2009-12-15T07:03:00.001+08:00

I knew it. I don't see you fighting for our friendship. So really, whats the point?

Butterfly

2009-12-03T13:00:00.002+08:00

Its been awhile now since we talked.
I cut you off my life as I was very angry.
I don't know what moved me to say hi to you.
But when you cried listening to what I have to say,
I wasn't expecting that.
I hope now you understand every action that I made.
I did not regret what I did.
But now, don't let me regret for saying Hi to you again.

when enough is enough

2009-11-05T19:31:00.003+08:00

Im now in the lowest point of my life. When i thought that after completing my NS, life would be great, but no! It was to begin with, but things start to change. My dad treats me like an atm machine, my work is no longer fun. I no longer come to work with a positive mindset. I use to be the guy who looks forward to come to work. But thats all over. Look at me now, Im now in a clinic to get an MC. My superior starts giving me bullcrap shifts working from 6pm-12am and reaching home only at 3am and then expecting me ti start working the next day at 8am-4pm. Why do they do that? Cause they know I can do it and even if I cant, I dont have a choice. Im loosing my energy, loosing the inner fun of me. Tell me people, what do I need to regain every aspect of my life???!!!

Lost & not Found

2009-11-03T01:40:00.002+08:00

If notfor my sister forgetting her office keys, I would be happily lazing at home. If not not her carelessness, I wouldn't have need to go down to her office to pass her the key. If not for that, I wouldn't have dropped my pouch containing an Ipod Touch, Earpiece & newly bought pack of cigaretes. OMG!! Hard earn money to buy gadgets all gone in a matter of seconds!!

A Blog Just For You And Me

2009-09-27T19:03:00.002+08:00

Letting it go wasn't easy but something I had to do. I cant hold on to it and just keep on hoping that a miracle will happen. I shall put it as my past and look ahead of life.

When Friends @ Work Go Crazy

2009-08-24T02:03:00.002+08:00

I miss all this crazy people since I've been sent over to Privé for training. Since I've been gone, many things has happened. My Barista has resigned and gone M.I.A ever since. My manager (the skinny botak mouse in the pic eating pizza) has left. Yoko, the milkshake ghost, is serving her notice and will be leaving me in a few days time. I seriously will miss every single one of them.

Its been so long

2009-08-18T06:48:00.002+08:00

Im sorry everybody, I know its been way 2 long since I blogged, but there seem to be nothing for me 2 write about.

Here are some updates about me:
- Now working at Cafe Hacienda @ Dempsey Rd
- Working as a barista
- I have gained a lot of weight since I started working

I have lost contact with the real world.

WORK WORK WORK

Guess What?

2009-08-04T11:30:00.001+08:00

Its my big
21!

Sleep Wake Up & Off To Work

2009-07-28T02:46:00.002+08:00

day by day, my life is getting sad. Work starts at 4pm, finish at 12am, wait for transport till 2am, get home by 3am. click here and there on the computer till 5-6am. Sleep till 1.30pm, and it all happens again the next day.

New Buy

2009-07-13T21:51:00.003+08:00

New shoes and pedals for me, means a new biking experience. Locking the shoe into the pedals is not that simple for me, especially when going of on a traffic light with tones of cars behind waiting for you.

2009-07-09T22:20:00.003+08:00

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Its Just Wrong

2009-07-05T00:16:00.005+08:00

What has happened to the mindset of every local Singaporean? Are we becoming dependable to every aspects of life. This has come to my mind recently after reading a book written by Neil Humphreys named "Even a Smaller Island". The book is about Singapore in the eyes of a foreigner who has the right to speak his mind as he has stayed here for 5 years during the time the book was published in 2003.

One thing he mentioned in the book was about Senior Citizens here. Why do we let them work till the age of 200 so that they can earn just enough to eat only a plate of rice with maybe nothing but soy sauce and a piece of fried egg. We people eat in fast food restaurants and leave the table without clearing the tray but instead let the poor old aunty come from one end of the restaurant staggering to the table that we once sat on just to clear that tray full of burger wrapping and a paper cup. How much effort does it take to do that ourselves? For some, maybe walking towards the rubbish bin is like doing a 400m sprint. I cant blame some, as living here in Singapore has become a luxury. You can have about just anything that you want with just a snap of the fingers. If you dont get it, COMPLAIN! What else is there to do?

Complaining is every Singaporean's fauvorite hobby. I swear, people here feed on complains. It just makes them happy. And the purpose of complaining to them is not for getting the better service, but in hope of getting freebies from the poor company. We have to live past this mindset as it really creates a bad image for us. Encouraging this behavior also is not healthy for the younger ones. Kids start complaining to get the things they want.

For example, they start using their maids to do chores for them. If poor Fatimah, the maid do not do as little 9 year old Jim says, they will just complain to mummy. Of course Fatimah does not want this to happen as this may result in being deported back and end up owing a pile of cash to the agency. So this means Fatimah has to treat Jim, only a 9 year old, as if he is the king. Its just plain disgusting if you picture it. Forget about relying on the older ones to set the example as most of them are to proud of themselves or some just cant be bothered. To them, they paid an amount of money to the agency and they deserve what they have paid for and forgetting all the aspects of morals and ettiquetes.

Man In The Mirror

2009-06-28T18:46:00.003+08:00

Video is just for fun. On the very left is Kota, and then Kenny in the Centre, Finally me. This is a cover of Man in the Mirror by Michael Jackson, just a small tribute to him, the King of Pop.

Plan For The Weekend

2009-06-26T15:45:00.003+08:00

Tonight, will be Jasmin's b'day, she is holding some kind of party/gathering at sentosa. Will be going down with Kota in the evening. Im in a dilemma in weather to bring her something or not. 1st of all, im bad at buying someone presents. 2nd of all, I think she is very picky about this things. So to be on the safe side, I better not buy anything. Well, maybe get her a bottle of non-alcoholic red wine a.k.a. carbonated grapefruit juice stuffed in an expensive looking bottle and you have to open it like a champagne. My Goodness, the world is full of pretentious shit. Its just grapefruit juice damn it!

Saturday evening, a 100 k/m ride with Kenny. All around Singapore together with other bikers from SMBF. Honestly, I have not been getting ready for this. I wanted to train this past few days, but Im down with the flu/fever. Lack of motivation together with my lazy body, its just not goign anywhere. I just hope that on Saturday the ride will be a slow and steady one. If not, trust me, I will bail!

Pouring Rain

2009-06-22T20:58:00.003+08:00

What's more interesting in a bike ride than heavy pouring of the rain? Seriously. It just HAD to be right when I wanted to try and do a 100 km. Only at the 1st km, it started to rain already. Lightning and thunder was playing like a song that you hate that keeps on repeating itself.

*Fun Fact about me: I'm scared of lighting. really scared. really REALLY scared! You want to know why? Because, the fact is that lightning strikes the tallest object on the area that it strikes. If you have an open field, it will go for the lonely tree stuck in the corner, right? Right, so the problem now is that, I'm always the tallest amongst my buddies or whoever I go out with. So yeah, this is stupid, I always thought that I'll be the one who is going to be nature's next victim :D I know it's silly, but it has never grown out of me.

Back to my attempt on 100km, it didn't happen. I was drenched under pouring rain with thunder and lightning right on top of me and not forgetting the one that stroke on a forested area nearby. A couple of traffic lights stopped functioning and I'm still cycling. I passed by Kranji MRT and decided to make a pit-stop. At this point of time, I have already cycled about 15km. Its still so far away from my goal. After about an hour waiting for the rain to stop and of course it did not, I decided to just go for it and head for Tiong Bahru and meet up with the guys. Upon reaching there, I didnt feel that I had enough, so I went ahead and cycled somemore going to Dempsey Rd to visit the guys at Hacienda.

It total that night, 61km + soaked up socks + broken back light worth $40 + hella of an experience.

Cycling Again

2009-06-18T16:22:00.004+08:00

Recently Ive been back to my hobby, cycling. The feeling is awesome. The intense feeling I get trying to complete the hill Im going up. The wind blowing in my face going over 40km/h downhill. The places I get to visit after each completed ride. And the good times I get to spent with my cycling buddy. Each completed ride is an experience, some good, some bad. Some are worth laughing about, most are worth having my middle finger up in the air. *Bloody taxi and bus drivers!

Ready For a Ride to Tiong Bahru

At East Coast Park With Kenny, Clocked In at a Total of 45km

On The Way Back To Kenny's, Pit Stop at Bugis *Notice My Jersey and the Bank

The Next Day @ Kenny's Place. Had a Nice Swim Before Heading Back Home. About 25km ride Back to Woodlands. I Was Dragging Myself To Do It. The Hot Sun Was Crazy.

Sembawang Beach Jetty

2009-06-15T23:49:00.002+08:00

Sembawang Beach

2009-06-13T04:21:00.002+08:00

Dan Sebernarnya

2009-06-12T20:20:00.001+08:00

Oh bulan
enggan melayan diriku lagi
pabila
airmata membasahi pipi
dah lagu lagu di radio
seolah olah memerli aku
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaan benci ini
sebenarnya cinta
yang masih
bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan
disebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga
merindui aku

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
mula menular dalam diri
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

pabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah
jatuh ke bumi
disaat kau benar benar mahu pergi
seperti
ku bernafas dalam air

dan sebenarnya
dan sebenarnya
aku rindu
dan sebenarnya
dan sebenarnya
aku tak mampu
tanpamu.

Taken or Gay

2009-06-12T16:18:00.002+08:00

They are either taken,
or gay.
Single and straight?
Its been very long since Ive seen that kind.
Maybe Ive not looked far enough.
Oooh, noo, now I remember,
I Cant Be Bothered!

Random Pics

2009-06-12T01:50:00.003+08:00

Good old memories, its the only picture that I kept during my days there.

My Lil Devil

My 2 Sisters

Whoa!! The result of my surgery.

Hahahahahahahah!

Memories

2009-06-08T20:43:00.004+08:00

I realized that I can atleast remember one event in each of the year Ive lived. Some are nice and sweet to think of, some are just painful memories.

1. k, honest, cant remember a shit

2. teenage mutant ninja turtle was my fauvorite. ouh yea, me and sister liked to pour baby powder on my father's working shoes. hehe

3. went to Sentosa a lot. Took many photos with sister. She kissed me on my cheek. Awwww, it was at one of the water fountain.

4. was staying in JB. I remember fighting with another kid

5. a friend's mum stole ice cream from me. stole Cheese Rings from a shop. it was my favorite ok. cannot ah? plus my sister was the one who planned it. I was eating it happily at home and she had to open her mouth, "Mama, adik stole that kropok from the shop just now". Walau eh! It was her plan to begin with. And plus, cant she at least let me finish it?? Yeah, I got a hell of a spanking from my mum. She used laundry hanger to whack me.

6. collecting Yakult after school ends. Moved in to Woodlands into a bloody big jumbo flat. My dad left me alone at home to buy food, I was playing with miniature army figurines. my dad came back home and my army was ready for War!

7. entered primary 1 and seeing how all the kids crying and wondering why. Was the 1st kid in class to shout out "CIKGU MAIZAH!"

8. hmm, primary 2F. hated the teacher. she cant pronounce my name: it sounded like "Hi-cow"

9. had the same bloody teacher. Mrs Tank! 1 period, always MATHS! I had to hold hands with my friends, I said "Shit". She was like, "shit? you want to shit? come, I bring you go toilet, you SHIT in front of me!"

10. had a lot of maths homework. SO much. aside from that, had to do 1 problem sum a day. Of course I did not. Just complete all 7 at end of the week. I was hiding homework when I got home. Under my bed, inside my pillow. All over the house man, just so that my dad wont find it.

11. had a lot of problems with school. left singapore education and went to an international school. hell, it was so much better. had tones of fun.

12. they call me school bully. hehehe, not class bully, but SCHOOL bully. I was called in once by my principal for cursing too much, and I was calling kids names and such. Anil - anal, Virginia - ouh come on, figure it out.

13. pre-teen years. pimples pimples and pimples! and starting to know what "love" was. My 1st ever girlfriend was Hannah. hahahaha. those days, good old days.

14. delifrance, my 1st job. earning $300 a month was SO much to me. I became a street punk. oh my gawd!

15. I did a lot of stupid things back then. So much of it. Dont want to think about it. ouh yea, stayed at Tanjung Pinang, Indonesia for about 6 months. Turned really dark, started smoking regularly and not forgetting, pimples pimples and more pimples.

16. Entered College, Raffles Design Institute. yeah, at that age, hehehe.

17. Graduated with an Advance Diploma In Multimedia Design.

18. stole a lot of perfume samples from my work place at Firmenich, not really stole lah, its free actually. But I took a lot. after that, worked at Maestro Bistro for 3 months and joined Scarlet Hotel at the end of the year. This was my most active year overall.

19. still waiting for NS, was still working at Scarlet Hotel, after that worked at barfly as a part time senior waiter. then came July 9. NATIONAL SERVICE! 3 months of recruit life made me loose 28kg. I was so happy with my body at that time. but the moment I stepped out of the training camp, 1st thing in my mouth was, Fried Hot Dog Bun. hehehehehehehe

20. boring, NS

21. now, serving my 41 days MC. waiting for ORD

Post Surgery

2009-05-25T06:51:00.003+08:00

My surgery 3 days ago went pretty well. The treatment I got from the nurses in SGH was amazing.

To Ward 76 of Singapore General Hospital: I would like to say thanks for the care I received during my short stay at the ward. You guys gave extra attention to the patients including me and I would like to express my greatest appreciation.

So by the way, the surgery took only an hour and it was over before I knew it. Anesthetics does amazing things to people. Like I kept asking the nurse the same question for three times without knowing until she told me about it. Hospital food is nothing to brag about. Fish Lemak Chili Padi with Vegetables and Papaya for desert. The taste was blend and saltless. Well, after all, it is called "Hospital Food".

Thanks to everyone that visited me. Without all of you, I would have felt lonely.

Now back at home, I have a huge bandage on my right knee and I have to take care of it. I can walk without crutches already. It is a good sign, plus they do make me walk very slow. Taking a shower is my least favorite thing to do in my daily routine. Let the picture do the talking:

Really makes me feel like a sandwich.

Bye for now, and yeah. Did I mention? I have 41 days of MC!!!

Ride of Silence (Singapore)

2009-05-21T01:58:00.004+08:00

Since tomorrow will be my surgery, I decided to utilize my legs and join the "Ride of Silence". I cycled to Sengkang to meet a fellow biker and also to buy a helmet then met with the rest at Merlion Park.
The ride of silence, wasn't very silent indeed. Riding under 20 km/h, we were really hogging the road. It is for a good reason, showing people that there are cyclist on the road. MANY of them. We HAVE the rights on the road. Do you know that bicycles are considered vehicles? We are not motor vehichles, but we are classified as one and that shows that we have the rights. Occupying the whole lane, cars tend to drive past us w/o honking. Only the BUSES and TAXI drivers were the noisy ones. It just shows how much drivers do not dare do anything when outnumbered.
From Woodlands > Yishun > Ang Mo Kio > Sengkang > Hougang > Serangoon > Lavender and finally Merlion park. Chilled out and wait for the ride to start. They break us into groups of 20 as not to over poppulate the roads. 19 km ride, passing by places in town at 13-16 km/h, it was an enjoyable ride. Slow and steady, but at some point, I was tempted to just leave the ride as it was kinda bring. Lemme rephrase, the ride around town was enjoyable but the Ride itself was boring. At the speed we were going, I might aswell jog. Oops, but of course, that would defeat the purpose. After completing the ride, we headed to Lavender food centre to have dinner and some rest. I broke off with the rest at hougang and went a seperate route back to Woodlands.
I made a pit-stop at Yishun and reallised the my hands were shaking. But my mental was still strong. I arrived back home at 12am and took a look at my speedo-meter:

Total distance - 86.6 km
Average Speed - 20 km/h
Top Speed - 51 km/h

Old & New

2009-05-20T02:46:00.003+08:00

My Old Ride

Wheeler 990 C2X
Full Suspension

My New Ride
Polygon Cyclos
Road Bike

New Bike

2009-05-18T23:09:00.002+08:00

Bought a new bike. A Road bike if you want to be precise. Got it for $500. There goes my savings :P My surgery is in 3 days time. Im trying to cycle as much as I can before I cant use my legs for a period of time.

Random

2009-05-14T23:42:00.002+08:00

. I no longer have my part time job
- They can no longer employ NSFs

. I'm going for surgery next week but only 4 people are allowed to visit me.
- Person 1 and 2 :- (Mama, Papa & Ameerah) - children is ok.
- Person 2 and 3 :- (Sister & ______ ) - anyone who wants to fit in the slot please email me your application form.
- Growth on my knee (Extra Bone) - Surgery is suppose to remove it.

. I went shopping with my sister and spent the most that I've ever did.
- Domanchi (Shoes)
- Topman (Top)
- River Island (Jeans)

Random

2009-05-04T05:54:00.004+08:00

Rota One!!
a new member has joined my Rota. Leslie is his name. If George is Lao Lao Jao, Im Lao Jao. Leslie is Lan Ciao. Newbird means less work for me.

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ok, btw, $3000 more to go for my DSLR. I have with me now $900 and trying to save $500 every month. Prive is killing me now. They are cutting the hours short closing an hour earlier each day. Its good news to some as it means more rest. Bad news for me as it means, less hours = less pay. Next week schedule shows that I will only be able to clock 20 hours in a week. I use to do 70-80 hours in 2 weeks. So what should I do? resign? hmmmm, maybe. I do plan to go to Hacienda, a sister company. I heard they have better staff meal and also, the closing time remains like before. But what do you know, if I do go there, the next thing is they start doing the same sh*t.

Sembawang Beach

2009-05-02T04:42:00.004+08:00

I had a turnout at Sembawang Beach of a drowning incident a few days ago. Dart divers were deployed for the search and rescue. Cant give you guys much details on the incident. But I am able to share some shots I took of the pre-rescue operation.

Breakage

2009-04-27T16:43:00.003+08:00

For almost 2 months that I have been working with Privé as a part time waiter, I have never ever in any point of time, break anything. Friday was the 1st time that I had to start work as early as 11am. It was a hot hot day and I arrived by 10.15am. No floor staff was around except me. So I did some opening procedures like arranging the sofa and unlocking the cabinets. The cabinet in the middle section was being covered by canvas and need to be remove. So I lifted it up, BANG!!!!!!

NUFF SAID!

JB Trip

2009-04-27T15:38:00.007+08:00

Went to JB with 2 of my colleagues. With only S$36, got RM80. Enough for food, ciggies and more food and more ciggies. Fizah became our "MAMA". She was the one holding onto the money, and we had to ask it from her when buying things. I grabbed a "Neighbourhood" trucker and Azhar got himself a pair of "Everlast" snickers. And as per norm, Fizah bought slippers. Macam lah slipar jepon tak cukop pat SG...

Some Random Pics

2009-04-09T12:01:00.004+08:00

Monitoring!

Exhausted!

During off duty, station personnel from Alexandra fire station engage them self with community work.

Out With Sister

2009-04-07T02:06:00.003+08:00

Had some fun with sister at Bugis. Did some shopping, or more like telling her NOT to buy this and that. You may not like it, but you have flabby arms my dear sis. Sleeveless just wont do for you. Its been awhile since we went out together as siblings. People do actually mistake me for being her boyfriend. I really need to get the "I'm not her boyfriend" t'shirt when Im out with her. Im loosing the shots here. hahaha. Had McDonalds before we left for home. Watched standup comedy through out the 1 hour ride on the bus.

Viewty

2009-04-02T00:21:00.003+08:00

Bought a new phone for myself. Sister did the same too. But she went crazy and bought one for her boyfriend also. Enjoying the new phone and hope I will never ever drop it because there is no form of protection for it. I had a long day today and my bed is calling my name.

Aisyah Comel

2009-03-26T02:30:00.001+08:00

Took this picture earlier today with Geoffrey's camera at work.

Marina @ Keppel Bay

2009-03-23T14:53:00.002+08:00

Privé

2009-03-20T03:32:00.002+08:00

Just came back from work at Privé. Nice friendly staff. Nice environment. Some nice customers. But the menu, its going to take me awhile to remember everything. My body is aching right now. Its been awhile since Ive been a waiter. But if all goes well, I see myself working there after ORD. But still, I love photography. I want to be a photo journalist. Well, you always need a plan B right?
BTW, if I do have time, I'll try to upload some pictures I took at my new work place. If you guys ever watch movies and they have ship yards for boats. You know, the one where they park their fancy fishing boat, I think its called a dock. Well the bar that I work at, its facing THAT. Privé @ marina @ keppel bay. Fantastic I tell you. Nice romantic place. There are couple seats that face the waterfront. A nice place for lovers. OK, enough of that. Sleep time. NIGHT!

16 Weeks To ORD!

2009-03-17T23:58:00.002+08:00

If you do notice, I have not cycled for a fair bit of time. My last off duties were used up for IT show and sleeping. Also not forgetting the interview I had with Prive Bar. Going to work there as a part time basis. Im sill waiting for a call from from Faeez regarding the job as a malay wedding videographer. Although I found out that he is not paying much, I don't mind taking up the job for portfolio purpose, and not forgetting, some extra income for savings. Jon has yet to send me the details for the yearbook I'm doing for him. Hope that I will get it soon so that I can complete it a.s.a.p and not have a big headache on the last minute. Im worrying now the fact that I have to juggle all this jobs around including NS that I'm doing now. 16 more weeks and counting! ORD OHhh!

Application for Fcukezah

2009-03-10T20:31:00.003+08:00

Name (as in NRIC):
Muhammad Haikal bin Jamil

Nickname: (boys with 'boi' as part of their nicknames need not apply.)

jayliberator

Hair colour: BLACK ONLY.
Black

Age: (20 and below, study first okay. 80 plus also can. I like old people.)

21

Race:
Javanese

Religion:

Islam

Q&A.

(Chinese boys with 'Law' as their surname, you are automatically shortlisted. You can skip this Q&A section.)

1. Have you ever been / are you in a gang?

Never & Never Will Be

2. Do you use gel on your hair?

(If yes, please do not apply. but wax is okay.)

Candle Wax can?

3. Do you wear spectacles?

(If yes, I like you already. if not, you're up for a challenge hor)

I wear swimming goggles

4. Do you like to dress up?

(If yes, then too bad, I don't like to dress up.)

you mean, put on make up & flaunt myself infront of the mirror? If that is the case, then NO

5. Will you force me to wear make-up?

(no? gooooooood. becaause I wouldn't even if you forced me to.)
No. Cant imagine you in makeup

WWII Bomb Relic Discovered

2009-03-09T11:03:00.014+08:00

By Liew Hanqing

POLICE and soldiers were roaming the area. And traffic was diverted. Another drill? No.

A World War II relic had been found at a construction site near the junction of Clementi Road and Commonwealth Avenue West on Monday evening, and the police weren't taking any chances.

Traffic was diverted from the vicinity to facilitate operations to detonate it.

Nan Hua High School, which is just next to the construction site, decided to ask the students to leave early as a precaution.

Students Zen Young and Quek Hou Joo, both 13, told The New Paper that they were alerted when an announcement was made over the public address system.

Said Hou Joo: 'The teachers told us that something serious had happened and that we were to go home immediately.'

Zen added his first thought was whether it could have been a bomb threat.

'I wasn't really scared, more like excited. Of course, we got to go home a bit earlier,' he said.

On the road, a couple on their way home from the airport were stuck in a massive traffic jam near Commonwealth.

When Mr Gary Lim, 36, approached his block at Commonwealth Avenue West, he saw a row of police vehicles.

'I thought a minor crime had been committed,' said Mr Lim, a financial adviser.

A long-time resident of the estate, a retiree who wanted to be known as Mr Foo, 68, said he wasn't too concerned when police officers started showing up at the estate on Monday evening.

He added that even when he left home yesterday morning, there weren't many police officers around.

'But I was slightly worried when more police officers appeared in the evening, together with the soldiers,' he said.

Heard from neighbours

He had heard from neighbours that a bomb had been discovered at the construction site.

A retiree who only wanted to be known as Mr Loh, 70, had been following the action keenly from his 25th-storey flat, which has a good view of the construction site.

At about 5.35pm yesterday, he was jolted by a loud 'boom'. He recalled: 'There was some black smoke coming up from below a pile of sandbags.

'The sandbags were still intact, so it doesn't look like the explosion was big.'

A police spokesman said the war relic was detonated at 5.35pm yesterday and that all traffic diversions were lifted.

The spokesman added that police were notified at 5.50pm on Monday evening that the relic had been found at the site, but advised the public not to be alarmed.

This article was first published in The New Paper.

Photos by: MHJ Stills

Cycling Diary

2009-03-03T00:15:00.001+08:00

From now on, I'm going to keep a record of my cycling distance daily. You can find it on the left of my blog. This should make me keep track of the total distance I cycle in a week.

Happy 2 months

2009-02-25T21:48:00.002+08:00

Happy 2 month baby girl. May we hold on tight together through the ups and downs, hmmm mostly downs. :'( Stay strong yea!

Man, whats with me and Ban Mian addiction. Must blame Jon Keng for this. He keeps on eating it at work, so I have to let go on my cravings on the halal version. but im telling you, never try the mutton version. Such a rip off. 1stly being it has no Ikan Bilis. 2ndly, it has no egg. 3rdly, It has only 3 bloody slices of mutton. Such a rip off no??

Me and babygirl saw a rainbow just now at Tampines. Well if that does not excite you, how about TWO rainbows? One of it being on top of the other. FANTASTIC!. Sadly my comp cant bloody detect my hp, so I cant upload the photos I took of it.

2009-02-19T20:25:00.003+08:00

My lil babygirl (Ameerah) has been sick for the past few days. She was sleeping when suddenly she started coughing badly and vomited. I had to change her and shower her. Yeap, you guessed it. My first time showering my lil babygirl. I told her its ok. Its not her fault. She was sobbing but I managed to calm her down. Nobody was home except me. Phew! I almost wanted to go out but I didnt feel right leaving her alone at home like what my dad always does. If I did go out, think of the horror. What would have happen to Ameerah.

It was fun giving that lil devil a bath. She was smilling all the way. Looking at her so happy after the shower made me smile.

Picnic at Pasir Ris

2009-02-11T13:02:00.004+08:00

I dont need Desaru to be happy. My heart will always be where you are. Pasir Ris beach with baby love, eating away "sambal goreng" that she cooked and munching on melted hershey bar. The 5 hours we spent, felt so short. Time sure passes by when you are here by my side. It sure is funny to see 3 couples joining us. And also that 2 China man that keep on looking at us and smiling. Entah gila kah tu orang? Macam anak kotai!

Woodlands Room For Rent

2009-02-11T12:27:00.000+08:00

Current tenant contract ended. So I urgently need to find a new tenant. So here it goes.

Big common room for rent.
Location: Woodlands Dr 14
Furnished:
-3m long Study Table *in picture
-Single Day bed *in picture
-Makeup Table with Drawers
-Side Table
-Fan

Able to use kitchen for light cooking & washing machine for laundry
Will be staying in a fully furnished/designed house with a Malay family of 4 Adults & 1 Child

Female Tenant Preferred

1 Pax:
$500 - no aircon
$550 - with aircon

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2 Pax:
$700 - no aircon
$750 - with aircon

Sorry guys, no couples allowed. Unless you are married :D

*interiors and decoration in pictures are for illustration purposes only

Desaru

2009-02-06T09:35:00.002+08:00

I now have to cancel the trip to Desaru tomorrow due to some "happenings" in the office. Shall I quote; 'We are under investigation. Leave not approved'... Ridiculously crazy, so they say its an "order" and I shall not disobey. Luckily I didn't need to pay a single cent for the trip as my sister was treating me to it. But lets just say I was going to other countries that require a flight ticket, will they still cancel it? Will they want to pay for my loss? Or lets just say if the person who wanted the 'Vacation Leave' wasnt me, would they have granted the leave?

Im in a very bad month right now. I cant find a tenant for the empty room in my house. This has taken away a big part my family's income. My sister has gotten a 30% pay cut from her company due to 'economy melt down'. My whole office department is under investigation due to some happenings. And in days to come, I will have my $260 Cold Storage voucher taken away as part of payment for a lost item. My family would really need that voucher this month. Could use it to buy 2 months supply of groceries.

Today

2009-02-01T23:27:00.003+08:00

you will never see tomorrow
as tomorrow will always be another day

you will never see yesterday
as it will always be the past

but today, is the only day that you can make a difference

This and That

2009-01-30T12:35:00.005+08:00

Thanks to my older sis, Im hooked playing "Harvest Moon" on the psp. I play it at home, while going to work, at work and on the way back from work and at home & while going to work & ... yeah, it goes on and on. Once I played the game at night till I fell asleep, I only reallised when I woke up the next day thinking, "when in the world did I go to sleep? where is my psp? GOD!! NO!! MY CHICKEN!!"

Im beginning to miss many people in my life. Many have happier lives on their own, some are just to busy, and some, I guess has forgotten me. *Who are you? jay? jay mana? haikal? OUH jayliberator! ok bye! o.O"

I miss someone greatly now, a heated argument has lead our friendship down to the drain. Its been so long since we chat and shared our shit. Im happy that she smsed the other time, I called her up almost immediately. It surprised me. I was happy, but angry at the same time. I was so angry that my new year's resolution was to forget about her. My friends adviced me to do so. But now, it feels different. Being friends for 6 years and forgetting her just like that, not easy. Its up to us to build the friendship back, your call.

My feeling towards babygirl, grows greater each day. her exams are comming & my working shift is not helping. I love the time we spent at pasir ris park, the weather was on our side and the view was good. I cant stop disturbing you all the time. haha. pendek! We need to find other places to go besides Sengkang Compass Point and Ikea. But Ikea is fun, looking at innovative interior furnitures and telling each other what kinda design we like. But babygirl, I swear, if we do stay together, we are going to have 2 seperate rooms. Hahahahaha.

on my 1st off day and planning to just slack at home
no money = no outside life

New Room

2009-01-27T23:59:00.006+08:00

I had my last straw of the lazy asshole who does nothing at home. I decided to just throw away the junk from the balcony onto one side and start arranging my stuff. Took me an hour or two and Vwala!!
I lay down on my newly position bed while playing my PSP and Ameerah enters-

Amee: Amee nak watch bambang play
Me: Watch lah!
Amee: Amee suka bilik bambang
Me: Haha, why?
Amee:Ada lampu, ada katil, ada taber, ada corputer.. macam tree house

notice the baby words she uses & she calls me bambang, not abang.

The small lil 5year old devil actualy finds that my new "room" in the balcony looks like a tree house. Where does she learn all this? haha, but I still have to agree a lil bit on that. Sadly, the size of this place, is a little to small. I dont have enough room for my clothes and stuff like that.

I deserve a break after that cleaning so I continued talking to my lil devil, I find her cute at a certain time a way over my head at some other time. She says the cutest thing and also does the most irritating, CRYING!

After snacking with her on Corntos that I bought earlier, I asked her to pass my phone

Me: abang belum call GF abang.
Amee: Corr lah!
Me: where's my phone? gi amik kan.
Amee: ni black, Amee tak shooker black
Me: huh? you call my gf black? *refering to the wallpaper on my hp
Amee: no, this one! *pointing @ the frame of the phone
Me: OuuuH!! why you dont like black?
Amee: Amee shooker pink, baru white, baru blue
Me: why not black?
Amee: BLACK MACAM TAIK!!

The lil devil was also refering to my other belongings that are black. Well MOST of my stuff are black, haha!

The lil devil LONG time ago

updates

2009-01-24T23:44:00.003+08:00

1. Bought very good condition PSP Slim from friend for $150
2. Super sick right now. Fever, Flu and stuff like that
3. Went for my medical follow up regarding the 1cm growth on the side of my knee. - Have to go through operation tentatively to remove it.
4. Have not been cycling due to commitments and work. Hence the gain of weight.
5. Planning to buy a few stuff from IKEA next month for my "Room".
6. Pissed of with the asshole at home that does nothing, as my "Room" has not been done. Junk has not been removed and bed have not been shifted out from my old room. Older sister took over that room. Was suppose to be shared but she is so messy that I cant take it. She has the lights on till late that causes me to not sleep well at night as I sleep on the LOFT bed (light is directly on top of me). By the way, I dont really have a room now. I sleep at the corner of my living room near the balcon. Balcony was suppose to be converted into my room, but the asshole that does nothing at home lives to his name. Balcony is full of his junk and laundry. What the F. I go home every day to a messy area. I clean it up and my sister starts messing things around. Will never be happy until I move out of this shit hole that I have to call home.
7. Today is my 1 month with baby girl. You make this world a better place. You never fail to make me smile and irritate me all the time. No matter what I say about how you look at times, I love you the way you are. Dont bother about what others say about us, theya re just jelious that we are happy together. Thank you baby girl, for always putting up with my crap. *Pssst*- and also for always calling you short.

MONAH

2009-01-18T22:48:00.003+08:00

WHAT DO YOU CALL A CHICK WHO TURNS INTO A MOM?

MILF

WHAT DO YOU CALL A MINAH WHO TURNS INTO A MOM?

MONAH

"Monah! Angkat Kain! Hujan Dah Turun! Monah! Kopi Abang Mana??"

OPS Lionheart

2009-01-14T16:55:00.002+08:00

Singapore Civil Defence Force DART team was sent to china to help with the rescue of trapped victims caused by the earthquake.

Just a simple photo montage I did for work. Now hanging on my office wall.

Ankle Sprain

2009-01-11T12:57:00.002+08:00

My ankle sprain or maybe gout (who knows?) has attacked me for the 2nd time within 1 month. I dont really know what is causing this. i dont remember twisting my ankle at any point of time. As for my gout, its suppose to be at my right toe, not my left ankle. I still have to go to work no matter what. Planning to go hospital on Wednesday to get it checked.

Wardrobe Malfunction

2009-01-02T23:20:00.005+08:00

What more can I say? The pictures says it all. I only realized this after sending dearie off to the MRT station. I had to suffer my whole trip from Bugis to Woodlands with that on my ass. Look everyone, "Family Guy Boxers!". The worst was when I arrived @ Woodlands interchange and had to wait for the feeder bus. It was an assparade! Alighting from the bus was another emberassing one. The bus was full of passengers seating and when I had to alight, everyone's eyes were on my ass!

Merry X'mas

2008-12-25T16:56:00.004+08:00

25th December
Merry X'mas To Some
A Special Day For Me
Take Care Dearies

SCDF Multimedia Team

2008-12-24T13:13:00.001+08:00

DJ Dan

2008-12-24T13:11:00.002+08:00

Model: NIKON D200
Shutter Speed: 10/1600 second
F Number: F/2.8
Focal Length: 70 mm
ISO Speed: 400

Hell's Gate

2008-12-21T23:45:00.002+08:00

Model: NIKON D200
Shutter Speed: 10/150 second
F Number: F/2.8
Focal Length: 17 mm
ISO Speed: 400

Singapura

2008-12-21T23:42:00.005+08:00

Model: NIKON D200
Shutter Speed: 10/150 second
F Number: F/2.8
Focal Length: 17 mm
ISO Speed: 400

Why Do I Bother?

2008-12-21T23:37:00.003+08:00

Why do I bother going to your blog everyday hoping for updates?
Why do I bother thinking about my past with yours?
Why do I bother imagining our future?
Why do I bother wanting to know how you feel right now?

P.S. - The similarity between fishes and women are that they are attracted to shiny objects.

8 Things About Me

2008-12-04T02:43:00.001+08:00

1. I'm generally a boring person. I Hang out mostly with guys and have very few female friends. And when I do have one, I stick to them. Its called loyalty.

2. Recently, I'm addicted to cycling. I try to cycle about 50km per day. but due to NS, I cant do it that often. Well at least now I have a reason to stop smoking. OK, I'm trying!

3. NS, Its killing me. It helped me with my experience, but the time spent here in NS, its just so depressing. I really cant get any creative juice flowing in this environment. I'm stranded in an office of walls (decorated with 13 photo montage done by me), a computer, a chair & a whole lot of video/photo equipments that I have no idea what to do with it.

4. I hate sleeping. I feel like time is wasted in that 8-10 hours. Why cant we just hibernate in between things that we do. I can do so much during that time when humans are suppose to sleep. I could play games, do work, watch a movie and yeah, cycle the whole night! Well of course I will get tired. But I can just sit down or relax and my body can recover cant I? :P OK, pushing all nonsense aside, I do love to sleep when the right time comes and I will do it for an average of 12hours after a nice long night of staring at the computer screen.

5. Gadget or Electronic accessories make me a happy man. Although i cant afford the fancy ones, it makes me so happy when I'm able to buy one after earning money from clients. *Evil Laugh!*

6. I hate problems. I hate people that have to many problems and not try to solve them. At least try to do something about it. Im not saying I don't have problems. I have tons of them. but I try to resolve them myself. But when I really cant, then that is the right time for me be really sad about it.

7. I love women. They are the best thing God has invented for men. I rely on them for emotional support and they make a good company for shopping. At times, they bite. And when they do, it hurts. That's the only flaw in them. its like, when you create something, there is always a flaw, a bug or a twitch. Resolve that matter, and you will get the perfect woman. And don't forget, they make perfect wives to do house cleaning :P

8. I'm always not very happy with what I have in hand. The saying goes, "The grass is always greener on the other side". Nothing is complete in this world. I always want new things, better things. That goes with woman also. I can never seem to find the perfect one. What is wrong with them? Ive always wondered, If you as a man, do not like another man, that makes you not gay. But what if, at the same time, you dont like woman? MONOSEXUAL?

The End

Changi General Hospital

2008-11-26T22:49:00.002+08:00

Visiting someone in the hospital is something that I would not like to do. Well of course, in the 1st place, I don't want the person i know to be there. It gets very depressing having to look at sick people who are warded and some of them are literally a ticking time bomb waiting to blast off out of this world. Well, this time round, its exceptional. My love/hate friend of 6 years, Nazrina was warded for 3 nights at CGH and I went there the next day that I found out. Seeing her smile when I was there made me happy. Well, why she was there is a long story.

I know the hospital has a strict rule on visitting hours and they actually have this doors that stops you from going in during restricted hours. But me being the stealth assasin made it inside. Well ok, no, I didnt do the dissapearing act. I rushed in when the door opened when someone was going out. At this time, it was WAY after visiting hours. OK, FINE! I know that they want to restrict people from going in, but what is with them locking me inside. I wanted to leave at 4.45pm and the nurse said, with a deep Indian accent, "Sorry, I let you go out, later everybody come in. I can only open the door when visitting hours starts at 5pm". OMG, seriously, I was going to be late for work and you are doing this to me? I was lucky that I had to wait for only another 15minutes. What if it was 3.30pm? Are you going to lock me in for 1 hour 30 minutes?

PS -
Naz,
I know that I get pissed off with you and I feel that I hate you at times. But I will always be there for you whenever you need me. Its just a call away. Please stop worrying to much. Goodluck with your exams & get well soon. Love you.

yours truly,
Haikal

Arnolds Chicken

2008-11-19T12:15:00.004+08:00

Woodlands - Pasir Ris

Pasir Ris - West Coast

Together with a few divertions.

By Bicycle

Total of Approx. 70km

And Its All For The Best

Arnolds Chicken @ Pasir Town Park

dont learn SAFETY by ACCIDENT

2008-11-15T00:05:00.003+08:00

Came back from Clementi by bike going by Lornie Rd, Upp Thomson Rd and Sembawang Rd. Had an accident up at Upp Thomson Rd. A Malaysian Car swerved in front of me and stopped. I had to apply my brakes hard but it seems that my front brakes are stronger. I flipped over and did a "Superman", went over my front wheels and landed on my hands right behind the car. The bloody guy didn't even give a fuck and went into the Petrol station ahead.

A good Samaritan helped me out and made sure I was OK and he helped me with my chains and stuff. My knees were bruised and my hands were bleeding. After that guy helped me out, I went off with a Thank You and looked for that Fucked up car. When I saw that guy, I was like "Fuck, you drive this car man? Do you even realize that I almost died behind your car? Im sure you realized I was in front of you and you swerved in front of me and stopped??!!". That guy just pretended do be confuse and said sorry.

Now I know, I have to quickly get a helmet and also gloves.

To Drivers out there: PLEASE look out for us cyclist on roads. PLEASE do not swerve infront of us just to make a turn. PLEASE wait behind us as we may make the turn also. PLEASE stay away from us and not squeeze beside us. This applies especially to TAXI and BUS drivers. When you guys pass by us in fast speed, the wind will make us wobble and we might end up UNDER YOU BUS!!

Body Aching Experience

2008-11-09T21:41:00.004+08:00

I just got back from 3 days away from home.

I got mself a new hobby.

CYCLING

1st Day - Friday:
Went to Kota's place @ Ghim to collect bike and cycled to West Coast. Chilled out for a breather and went to Holland V for supper. Kenny, Shikar and I decided to go to Henderson Waves & Mt Faber Park. The ride up the hill was killing me as it was my 1st day of cycling. This guys said that the hill was dissapointing and they were expecting for more challenges. Give me a break. Im an ametuer (there, I said it). But the cycle down was fun. All down hill and going @ 45km/h. I almost hit a wall on a bent and that could have got me killed. We then decided to go to Kallang to sent Shikar off. We passed by Tanjong Pagar, Raffles Place and many more. Then we ended up at Geylang in this guys had supper for the 2nd time. Im telling you, this guys have stomachs of steel and they are 1/2 the size of my body. We stayed there for a couple of hours looking at the "Bees" passing by and chilling talking about everything under the moon. @ 5Am, we proceeded to Dhoby Ghaut and then back to West Coast. By the time we got back, it was 7am on Saturday.

2nd Day - Saturday:
Nothing interesting. Sent the bike to get it fixed @ Holland. I changed the Chain($25) & Cassete($20) plus had it tuned up ($45). The whole thing total to a big RIP OFF!! But I had no choice because no other bike shop was open.

3rd Day - Sunday:
To cut the story short, I cycled from West Coast back to Woodlands with Kenny. It took us 1 hour and 20 minutes. My thighs are aching right now but its getting better. I rode faster than the 1st day and Im trying to do this more often. Soon, Ill be riding to work (paya lebar). Save money man!!

Peace out chill out and god bless.
My body needs rest.

Random!

2008-11-09T00:56:00.003+08:00

Blogging is a tragedy. I realize now that time well spent is time spent on the road. Yesterday I went biking with a couple of friends. It was freaking A! FEeling the gravel crumbling under my wheels and my cogs spinning like spiders spinning their webs on high; yeah that's right! My wheels and my cogs! I was one with the freaking machine man! Yeah man. I'm cool.

Okay so I'm here, and she's there, and you're nowhere. WE went to Mount Faber. That place is so much better, when you are climbing up there on a ladder. Don't you dare, make this about flair, cause life is real, like a bowl of cereal. Yeah that's right. Cereal.

I'm allergic to milk. Especially soya milk, cause there's way too much protein in it, and my friend is lactose intolerant. He farts like bart.

Alright guys, peace out. I'm a hip hop specialist, gonna make my way to the therapist.

2008-10-29T20:47:00.001+08:00

I MISS MY COOKIE!!!!

LTA Royston's R.O.M

2008-10-20T19:40:00.018+08:00

I did my officer a favor and help him shoot his solemnization with his fiance. Initially, equipments would be provided by him, but since I managed to get hold of my friend's Canon 5D, I didn't really use Royston's camera.

And that comes to my point, since he is my officer, should I address him is 'Sir' or 'Royston' during a shoot?. I mean, I am so used to calling him 'sir' in the office. For eg: Good morning Sir, Yes Sir, No Sir, will do sir. So during my shoot with him, I was stuck in calling him that. I was like, "Sir, can you please look there" & "Sir, I need you to hold her hand" . Weird right?

Btw, this wasn't a paid shoot. Its for my portfolio. I have never done an ROM before. So here is the first. I hope this would give me a head start to somewhere. :)

My 1st shot when I just arrived

Royston Tan & Poh Cheng Siok

A Walk In The Park

Husband & Wife. Soon

Waiting For Their Turn

I Take It That Nobody Dragged You Here?

Yes Yes, Come On. Get Over With It Already!

Haha, Here It Goes!!

1st, The Ring

Then, MY KISS!!!

Life Time Contract

JUST MARRIED!

Come Honey, Its Over!

Hahaa, Sir, If you read this. Its just for fun. Congratulations to both you and your wedded wife. May you hold hands till death do you part.

Sultan Mosque 2

2008-10-15T16:13:00.002+08:00

Make: NIKON CORPORATION
Model: NIKON D200
Shutter Speed: 1/4 second
F Number: F/3.5
Focal Length: 18 mm
ISO Speed: 800
Date Picture Taken: Sep 29, 2008, 7:44:01 PM

Sultan Mosque

2008-10-15T15:22:00.004+08:00

Make: NIKON CORPORATION
Model: NIKON D200
Shutter Speed: 1/4 second
F Number: F/4.2
Focal Length: 36 mm
ISO Speed: 800
Date Picture Taken: Sep 29, 2008, 7:43:22 PM

Beginning to The End

2008-10-12T11:58:00.003+08:00

20.7.08 - Begins

1 - Love
2 - People
3 - Roses
12 - Weeks
13 - Sundays

12.10.08 - The End

The Noose Paper

2008-10-09T20:14:00.005+08:00

TNP: An Indonesian maid was found in a house after being a suspect of kidnapping a baby girl. She was found with the baby girl in an unknown location. Photos are released to the media.

lol.. those photos where taken when Ameerah was REALLY young and my older sister was WAY THINNER.

Photos where taken on 5/8/2004

Thinking Of You

2008-10-07T11:54:00.002+08:00

. S . U . H . A . N . A .

Sometimes you make me feel so angry, sometimes you make me smile. I don't know what is happening in your head, but let me say this 2 you. Love, I miss you so much that I'm angry @ you. I'm angry with the fact that we don't meet up anymore. I'm angry with the fact that I feel stuck in this relationship. I don't know where this is going, but what I know is that, If I'm patient enough, I will not regret the wait. Now, every single day I wait for you. I think of you, and I will not stop missing you.

I Will Always Be Thinking Of You

Hari Raya

2008-10-05T20:48:00.006+08:00

ok here it goes, tell me..which blog whose owner is a malay, does NOT blog about their hari raya experience or atleast their pre-hari raya grandmother tales? ..... there? I told you, confirm have one... so I will need to have one for myself oso.

The night of raya, I spent the time with my sister, her bf and Yunos. Me and Yunos started walking around looking for his baju Since 12am but ended up waiting for my sister taht came @ 2am.. the place was super duper crowded.. pack nak mampos, mampos pon tak pack mcm gitu... during our escapade is geylang looking for baju and songkok and stuff like that, I managed to get my sister 2 do Henna design on her hand.. she ended up smudging part of the hand onto something.. hahahaha, then the design rosak..

and then it was 5am, we reallised that stalls start closing down without putting up any bargain... like wat the hell right?? so we rushed and got cheap baju for Yunos and my Dad for $25 each. The things there were freaking expensive. We bought cheese hotdogs and they cost $1.50 each.. and the Ramly burger were like $3.00 and when I opened it.. NO VEGGIE. And you know ehn you buy Ramly burger, they cover the patty with egg, well they didnt.. it was only the bottom part... what a rip off. And so @ 6 am we headed home in a cab as my sister's bf was limping due to gout. When I got home, I immediately told my sister,

"NEXT YEAR, IM NOT GOING!!"

I woke up late for raya, 3pm. My mom keep waking me up saying that my baju, is damaged due to the iron. there was a hole on the shoulder. I was SO pissed at her. I mean, my sister bought the baju kurung and it wasnt cheap. I liked it alot coz of the satin fabric.. but now its ruined. They ask me to place my Samping over my shoulder but of coz I said NO. Im no Mat kampong. In the end, I ended up wearing the Baju Kurung we bought for my father, bcoz its also white. I didnt feel comfortable and the fabric was so thin that if I didnt wear the Samping, you would be able to see the 'Family Guy" boxer I was wearing. Hehehe.

I spent my whole Hari Raya only at my Maternal Grandparents place. Nothing much happened. The usual stuff, Haikal? Working? NS? Ouh NS? Do what? Lost So much Weight.. that kinda stuff.. My and sis didnt take alot of photos as most of the relatives there are busy eating aways in the kitchen. Ouh ya, Yunos joined me on that day as his family is back in Brunei and he does not plan to go back there just for Raya. So I invited him to let him have a feel of raya. @ 9.30pm he left as thursday is a working that for him. Me and my family, we went back home @ 11.30.

Harbour Front

2008-10-03T03:07:00.003+08:00

Make: Canon
Model: Canon EOS-1D Mark III
Shutter Speed: 1/13 second
F Number: F/2.8
Focal Length: 42 mm
ISO Speed: 1600
Date Picture Taken: Sep 19, 2008, 8:22:42 PM

On The Way

2008-10-02T00:57:00.006+08:00

Who Dont know? Harbor Front @ Night

Notice What He Is Wearing

I passed by Henderson Rd not knowing that the brige will be on top of me.

Random, the cat was starring @ me

As you guys should know, I have been going to hawkers after hawkers shooting the stalls for Singtel Directory. since the whole project was a big one, I traveled alot and I do get to see good things. All this good things bring flowers to my project as the whole project is boring nak mampos, nak mampos pon tak boring macam gini.

For the last time

2008-09-29T10:12:00.002+08:00

I want to hold you for the last time,
put my hands on your face and kiss you for the last time.
I'd love to hold you tight for the last time,
but I'm afraid if I'll fall for you again, for the last time

now that I have let you go
my feelings for you only god knows
my memories with you I will still hold
you and i, no longer together anymore

I want to whisper sweet words to you for the last time
watch the sunset with you for the last time
I want to sit around and get pinched by you for the last time
let you bite my tongue for the last time

do I still still have feelings for you?
or is just that I miss you
feelings like this make me confuse
if leaving you was the right thing to do

I want to hold your hand for the last time
Kiss you goodnight for the last time
I want to tell you now for the last time
I miss you so much and I still love you and I want to hold you and I still want to be with you if you are willing to change FOR THE LAST EFFING TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Letting Go

2008-09-28T21:22:00.002+08:00

Does it make a difference that I let you go? I dont even know if you truly love me anymore. Yea, true, I do get sms-es from you once in awhile saying that you do. But thats the point, I only hear from you once in awhile. I use to call you every night without fail. But when I stopped, I see no difference. Im stuck in this relationship not knowing whats going on. We use to be happy but not anymore. You use to be the sweetest person to me, but not anymore. No, no one is replacing you. Because honestly, I dont know if anyone can make me smile the way you did. If I stayed, I dont know if we are going to be the way we where. You are now busy with work, and same goes to me. And now that im on rotating shifts (ROTA), things will not be any better. The chance of me meeting you is even lesser. I would really love to talk to you about this face to face. But I dont even get the chance to talk to you on the phone, what more meeting you. Unless you think that we can have something again, unless you think that we can love each other the way we did, UNLESS you think that this silence will be over anytime soon, Im letting you go. You asked me to wait for you, you asked me to give you time. I asked why, you didnt want to tell me. I accepted it. But now that i reallised, we have no communication anymore. You didnt even have enough trust in me. I told you that my past would be over me, you where so afraid that it wouldnt. Now I can say with confidence that all my past, is my PAST. But whats the diff? Its over. I knew that I did what I could to sustain our relationship. But nothing helped. Im all alone now. Now I know, no matter how many friends I have, I have to go through this shithole by myself. Nothing and nobody can help me. LOVE YOURSELF BEFORE YOU CAN LOVE SOMEONE ELSE

Around Singapore

2008-09-20T21:20:00.004+08:00

This past few days I have been busy shooting for Singtel directories. I took the project as a sub-sub photographer. Things are not going that well as I have to travel almost the whole Singapore snapping photos of stalls in hawker centers. Whats worst is that, when I arrive at the place, stalls are always close. When I arrive early, some stalls open late (night hawker). When im there in the evening, they are close for the day. Sadly, of all 14 hawkers I have manage to clock, only 6 are considered complete and the rest, I have to revisit. My body is starting to ache like a 60 year old man, not that I know how 60 year old man feel but its bad enough. I walked so much in a day that if calculated together, I could have walked the same total distance from Tuas to Changi. Why cant the company be more organized? get 4 photogrpahers, covering 4 different areas, North, South, East & West so that it can be done quickly. I mean, he is paying me as per Hawker not per day or whatever. If its not for the desperation of cash, I really would have given up and throw this project @ his face.

I was from Clementi to Dover to Ghim Moh to Commonwealth. And my last destination was suppose to be Havelock road. From Commonwealth I took a bus and dropped @ Central mall thinking that it would be around that area. But NO!! I was lost. I found out from Yunos that Havelock Rd is freaking long. He asked me to walk to ... Gangrene Rd??? Ouh no.... Ganges Rd.. I know I passed by that place, but I had no idea where that was.. so I ended up walking to chinatown, hong lim park. Over there, the shop tenants are really unfriendly people. I said I was rom singtel and they said that they didnt want to get involved with the goverment. WTF??!! but in the end, after going to Maxwell and Chinatown Food Centre, I found out that the main photographer has took photos of all the hawkers in that area... what a waste of time

I started the day at 12pm and ended the day at 7. I have not been fasting this past few days due to this stupid project. Im not all for the food, I just needed to drink and smoke. Forgive me Allah. Make me a stronger man.

CD Day Parade 2008 @ BRTC

2008-09-19T16:20:00.005+08:00

Jamming

2008-09-14T23:46:00.002+08:00

I spent the whole day with a newly formed band. They had a jamming session @ potong pasir. I went as a videogrpaher. I had fun with them. This goes without saying that the talents are superb. Redzwuan was SPLendid to the core. I have to be honest, I dont really know what a good guitarist sounds like besides playing perfectly, but his showmanship was terrific. On the way going to town after jamming, we decided to walk to a bus stop to get a bus and I just discovered that Potong Pasir is VERY near Macperson and Toa Payoh Road. I could have taken a bus from woodlands (966) instead of wasting my money AND time taking the train.

At peninsula, we wasted time while waiting for break-fast *applies to only 3 of us* and also looking @ guitars. At 6.15pm we decided to go funan to have KFC. so here is the thing, I saw 3 foreign looking makcik wearing tudung (head scarf), most prob from Indo, seating down chit chatting away. 1st thing in my mind was "hmm, maybe waiting for break fast", but on a closer look... jeng jeng jeng... ergkk!!! kenyang!! member dah bedal dulu!! that was so embarassing. its very degrading to us Muslims. ignore the youngsters that dont fast and eat anywhere and everywhere they want. but these are 3 "embak". what would people say? how do other religion want to respect us if we do this? aside from that, I was being a mean person at the kfc. I saw 4 seater table un-occupied and there was 5 of us. beside that empty table was 2 guys, 1 was clearly malay *tak puasa, pat tangan ada Pepsi*. and beside them was another un-occupied 4 seater table. me being mean, I said loudly in malay "duduk jer pat sini, dahtu suruh ni budak BELAH pi meja sebelah. orang datang nak buka puasa". hehehehehehehe. so they did leave.

we hanged out @ suntec city, starbucks since Rasul's "mate" *ehems* have staff discount. we hanged out there till late, thinking that we will catch the last train, as Rayza and Rasul keeps on saying to me "Rilek Din, the nite is still young". Ouh ya, whats with my nick name?? DIN?? kiwak, tak handsome, favour ah geng. Stop It siak!! anyhooo, to make story short, we walked to Siti Hole and found out that the train has said its final goodbye. Where would you go when you are stuck @ siti hole in the middle of the night and you dont want to take cab? McDonald bras basah jugak jatuh. I had my Sahur there. Senin McGriddle, eh no, Sausage McGriddle w/ Egg. The rest of the guys had the same. I have to tell you, we all LOVED it. but no suprise to me as it was the 2nd time I tried it. By the time it was 6, we headed home. All the guys took cab while I took the train alone. One more thing I would like to Bitch about. What The Fish is wrong with SMRT? I went into the station waiting for the 1st train and it was like seating in an OVEN!! and there was no one there yet except for afew of random people. But by the time that the other train arrived and passengers where waiting for the transfer, Dah macam Senin McMuffin dalam OVEN lah SIOL!!!
OK!
Thats All!

PICS:
Abang Rayza
From Left:
Drummer, Lead Guitarist, Bassist, Rythm Guitarist and Vokal

Chilling @ Starbucks Suntec Siti

Sustaining

2008-09-13T00:11:00.003+08:00

To be together was never a regret
For you have made me a better man
You show me what true love was like
It was just me, stuck in my past life
As of today im willing to let go,
So our love will go fast from slow

Even if time is not by our side
I shall not make that a reason why
we should never be heart to heart
even with our hands apart.
I shall try to make you smile
even if it takes awhile

My ears and shoulders are always there
If you need me for a hug and care
I wont let you cry alone,
For you will always be my love
Every time I pray to Him,
I ask to banish away my sins
But us, I shall always pray
never let our love decay

ILY - Even If It Hurts

Is That True

2008-09-10T17:42:00.001+08:00

When girls are quiet, Millions ofthings are running in their mind.

When girls are not arguing, They are thinking deeply.

When girls look 'staringly' at you, They are wondering how long you will be around.

When girls answer "i'm fine" after afew seconds, They are not at all fine.

When girls stare at you, They are wondering why are you lying.

When girls lay on your chest, They are wishing for you to be theirs forever.

When girls call you everyday, They are seeking for your attention.

When girls want to see you everyday,They want to be loved and pampered by you.

When girls sms u everyday, They miss you and want you to reply at least once.

When girls say I LOVE YOU, They mean it.

When girls say that they can't live without you, They have made up their mind thatyou are their future.

Finally.. When girls say "i miss you", No one in this world can miss you more than them..

I Love You - Does That Mean Anything?

2008-09-10T11:36:00.005+08:00

It seems that our relationship has slowed down to almost 5km/h driving in an express lane. We started running before learning how to walk. Now I feel that everything is comming to a stop. But why give up? I know that I cant forget my past but I will if you give me time. Isn't this whats its all about? I slowly forget my past when you are by my side. But recently, since we seldom meet each other, I start thinking about it. I need you to be with me and guide me. I'm not asking much from you. Every relationship has its flaws. Our past is the greattest flaw now. But if we try to fix, insya'allah (on gods will) things will be back to normal. Dont give up on our relationship. Atleast I know I dont. I wana cherish every single moment we spent together. I will try and do whatever it takes for whatever is in between us to be over. I wont say "I Love You" until it means something to you.

I Want To Know

2008-09-08T23:19:00.002+08:00

bila kita bertentang mata,
aku terjatuh cinta
bila tangan bergenggam sama,
aku rasa tergoda
bila engkau mula berkata,
hatiku gembira
katakanlah pada diriku,
jika engkau mencintai ku

Recruit

2008-09-07T15:48:00.004+08:00

One year has passed since those photos where taken. It happened to be the Ramadan last year. The Muslim recruits where fasting and the Chinese guys where having dinner. I just had to find something to do while waiting. We had a good laugh after looking at how our faces turn out to be. Today is the 7th day of the fasting month. I'm holding it in there. Staying strong. But what bothers me now is not about fasting, but about returning back to work tomorrow. I hate going to the office as its very far away. I hate the office as I have face people that I don't want to face. Whats worst is that I hate the office because its boring.